My album is a list of songs in my head.
It is a group of files on my computer.
It is a work in progress.
It is not yet a physical thing, and this has been the case for quite some time now.
I googled my name the other day (don’t judge – you’ve all done it too, whether you admit it or not!), and came across an article in which I was described as ‘currently working on her first recorded album’. The article was written back when I lived in Tetbury. I moved over 2 years ago.
So, this little nugget of information has got me wondering why I can’t seem to get my head down and finish. Plenty of my friends and peers have released work over the period in which I’ve been trying to get this done.
I suspect it boils down to three things:
- I am a perfectionist – I am never happy with the work I have recorded
- I am afraid of failure, and because of this I lack the motivation to follow through on my ideas
- I procrastinate – as a symptom of the two reasons above, I waste the time I have because I’m afraid of really starting.
So, essentially what I need is a kick up the arse.